“Honest to God”

Isaiah 58:1-12

Matthew 6:1-6, 16-21

March 5, 2006

 

Did you notice the change in the sanctuary today?  If you were not looking for it, you might have missed it.  It is a subtle change, nothing drastic, but a change nonetheless, a reminder that there is something new going on.  What is the change?  It is the color purple you see on the pulpit, the Communion table, and our stoles reminding us that we have entered a new season the church year. 

We have entered the season of Lent.  Lent is the 40-day period, which starts on Ash Wednesday and ends on the day before Easter.  It is an ancient practice dating back to the first century of church history.  Throughout the past 2000 years, the observance of Lent has gone through some changes.  Originally, it was a week of preparation for baptism leading up to Easter.  During the Reformation, Lent began to take on a new meaning as a time to focus on our sin, our need for God’s grace, and what God did for us in the death and resurrection of Jesus Christ. 

But over the years since the Reformation, Lent has slowly lost some of its theological importance in the lives of the faithful.  Now, Lent is viewed either as a time when we fast or give up something we like, or as a time to take on something that is self-giving.  Certainly these different understandings and ways to observe Lent are indeed faithful, but neither fully grasps the depth of what is meant by this time of Lenton devotion and discipleship. 

          The fuller understanding of Lent, which takes us back to it’s original intent, is that of a time of disciplined and devoted self-examination, a time when we engage more deeply and more honestly our spirituality and faithfulness, a time when we called to contemplate the reality of what it means to be a disciple of Jesus Christ and to ask the tough questions of ourselves, such as:

Am I fully committing myself as a disciple of Jesus Christ? 

Am I truly growing in my walk of faith? 

Am I joyfully and reverently offering my time, my gifts of the Spirit, and my possessions to the work of Christ’s church? 

Am I living in true Christ-like relationships with God, my family, my spouse, my children, and with others? 

Am I engaged in devotional acts such as prayer or Bible study? 

Am I consistent in participating in the life and ministry of the community of faith?

Am I consistent in joining together with others in communal worship?

Am I witnessing to others the Gospel of Jesus Christ, serving others with Christ-like compassion and love, and giving myself to the work of God in the world?

          These questions, and others, move us from thinking about Lent as just a time to give up something or as just a time to take on something, to using this time before Easter to really begin to consider our relationship with the One to whom we belong, the purpose we were created for, and who we can become as God’s people. 

This is why Lent is more than just a new season, it is a yearly journey of contemplation, self-examination, re-discovery, a yearly journey in which we confront directly and honestly the very condition in which we find ourselves, and then look beyond ourselves to the One who brings the promise of reconciliation, renewal, and hope, to the One who offers us endless possibilities and potential as God’s people, to the One who gives us the assurance of our salvation in Jesus Christ.

          And so we begin this yearly journey with our first step, but this first step may be the hardest one we have to take, for it requires us to put away our pretensions and posturing, to break down the wall that surrounds us, and to let go of our need for self-importance and self-gratification in order to come before God with everything we are and with everything we are not, to come before God with a openness and willingness to be moved, shaped, and transformed by God’s abiding presence and act of grace through the power and provision of the Spirit of the living Christ. 

But as I said, this first step is not an easy one to take because it means that we have to be honest to God about ourselves, and it is not always easy to be honest to God about ourselves, because being honest about ourselves means that we have to admit the best and worst about ourselves, our gifts and our faults, our hopes and dreams as well as our fears and doubts, the good, the bad, and the ugly.  And that can sometimes be a difficult thing to do with our fragile human ego. 

          I remember the first time I discovered I was afraid of heights.  It was when I was in Jr. High School and I went with some of my friends to the University of Arkansas indoor Olympic size pool and diving area, including the 10m diving platform.  Of course as a teenager I was invincible.  I knew that I could do anything, well at least I thought I could.  On the way to the pool, I bragged about how I was going to jump off the 10m platform.  Of course it didn’t help having my friends goad me into doing it.  They were not about to let me get away with chickening out. 

          So we arrived at the pool and I and my self-inflated ego strutted to the ladder to climb up to the platform ready to prove to the world just how cool I was.  I climbed the ladder, stepped out onto the platform, and made the most grievous mistake I could have possibly made.  I looked down.  All 30+ feet of it.  It might as well have been 100 feet.  At that moment, the enormity of the moment came crashing down upon me, and my precious ego burst like an over inflated balloon.  I felt very small, very unsure, very scared.  For the first time, I had to examine myself, and I realized that I was vulnerable.  I was not as invincible as I thought I was.  I was not as courageous as I had made myself out to be. 

For the first time, I realized that the self-constructed identity I had created for myself was as shaky and wobbly as my legs were up on that platform.  I stood on that platform for who knows how long.  Walking to the edge over the water.  Walking back to the ladder.  Telling others to go ahead in front of me.  All the while trying to think of some reason not to jump and go back down that ladder.  Until I finally decided to take a step of faith and make the hardest step of my young life into the warm, refreshing, and renewing water below.  In doing so I learned a couple of valuable life lessons. 

First, when you jump off a 10m platform make sure you hold onto the bottom of your swim trunks or you will be wearing them under your armpits.  And second, be honest about yourself, be honest about your strengths and weaknesses, be honest about who you are and who you are not, and let go of your fear, your anxiety, and your ego so that you may become someone different than you were before, someone different than you thought was even possible, someone different and new.

          And yet, so often we fail to really be honest to God.  We may climb the ladder and stand up on the platform, but all we do is peer over the side.  Unable to commit, unable to put ourselves out there, and unwilling to break down the walls of our self-constructed identity, in order to fully be given a new identity as one who belongs heart, mind, body and soul to Jesus Christ.  Instead, we think of ways to retreat down the ladder to where it is safe and comfortable, to the place that is familiar.  We may even go through the motions of faith walking back and forth encouraging others to go in front of us, but in the end we only find ourselves in the same place, unmoved, unchanged, untransformed. 

We cannot allow this time of disciplined and devoted self-examination lead us toward a kind of spiritual arrogance or give us a false sense of spiritual security.  This is not an opportunity for us to prove to God, ourselves, or anyone else how religious, spiritual, or even Christian we are or can be.  Nor is this a time for us to earn and build up brownie points so that our names don’t get erased from pages of the book of life.  Lent reminds us that we cannot just go through the motions of religious piety.  It reminds us that we cannot just stay where we are walking to the edge but never taking the hard first step of faith. 

God knows our hearts and our deepest thoughts.  God knows our motives and the intentions behind our actions.  God does not want machines who go through the motions because they think they should because it looks good, God wants people who are honest to him about themselves.  God wants people who are ready and willing to be molded and fashioned according to his design.  God wants people who are ready and willing to be formed into instruments ready for use by him in the world. 

Lent is not about earning salvation, it’s about remembering the acts and promises of God in human history, and then, and only then, learning how we are to respond to God in faithful obedience.  And so, for the next 40 days we will go on a journey, a spiritual journey, a spiritual journey that begins with us reflecting upon our disobedience and rebellion against God and ends with the fruits of our penitence, a life of redemption and renewal, and a faith that is transformed and directed by God’s abundant grace.

          On this first Sunday in Lent, as we move to the table to celebrate the Lord’s Supper, let us never forget the proclamation of the divine words, “Never again.”  Let these words be the confirmation and affirmation of God’s intention for us, in our life of faith and discipleship.  Let the promise of these words revealed in Jesus Christ, be for us a renewing and liberating power that carries us, not just for the next 40 days, but to that final day, when we too will be finally and fully redeemed, restored, and risen.  Amen.